What's On My Mind

- I'm usually a BIG American Idol fan.  This year just isn't "wow"ing me like the seasons have in the past.  I just find it hard to believe that out of all of the hundreds of thousands of people that auditioned, that these are the BEST they could find.  Most of the contestants are forgettable, so much that I can't even NAME the Top 12.  Sad.

- I'm an even BIGGER LOST fan.  My brother got my hubby and I hooked on the show when he got us Seasons 1 and 2 on DVD for Christmas one year.  Dang him!!  Anywho, this is the last season.  This season has been so hyped up as being "the season of answers"(if you watch the show, you know just how important those answers are).  However, I find myself totally disappointed in this season.  Maybe I expected TOO much going in, but COME ON!!  There are only 9 episodes left and so far, I have been less than impressed.  I guess I expected the last season to stand out about the rest.  I find it being just like any other season.  And they haven't answered hardly any questions at all.  I just hope there planning something big at the end.  I do appreciate getting to see Sawyer without his shirt on though. {wink}

- Tristan has NOT been sleeping well at all during the night.  Everything I've read says that babies his age (he will be 4 months old on Wednesday), should be sleeping for at least a 6-8 hour stretch at night and around 16 total hours a day.  HA!  I'm lucky if my child sleeps 8 hours total in a 24-hour period.  He usually takes a morning nap lasting anywhere from 2-4 hours.  Then he takes a short afternoon nap lasting anywhere from 45 minutes to an hour.  Then he's up until bedtime which these days is anywhere from 11pm to 1am.  Once he's down for the night, he's up every 1 1/2 to 2 hours.  Then he's up for the day around 5:30am or 6am.  I called the doctor today and we are going to start Tristan on cereal tonight.  I'm hoping beyond hope that this will help his sleeping at night.

- I am SERIOUSLY sleep deprived (see above).  Tristan not sleeping is taking it's toll on me.  Since he is up every hour or so during the night, I'm not getting much sleep, at least not consecutive sleep anyway.  I'm physically tired and even more emotionally tired.  All I want to do during the day is sleep, but that wouldn't be fair to my baby boy, who surprisingly enough, is up and pleasant and ready to play.

- I have a newfound respect for all the single parents in the world.  I honestly don't know how they do it.  I am SO thankful for my hubby right now.  He has been such a help lately, especially during the nighttime hours. He is sleep deprived, as well, but still manages to get up and go to work each and everyday.  What a trooper!

- I really miss my mom at times like these.  I want nothing more than to hear her tell me that things with Tristan will get better....that it's nothing that I'm doing wrong.  I need a hug from her so much right now.