Three years later.....

Saturday marked the 3 year anniversary of my mom's death. I still remember it like it was yesterday. Jason, Sue Luehmann and I had just gotten back from breakfast in the hospital cafeteria. We had gotten some bacon and toast for dad because he wouldn't leave my mom's side. The doctor had given her something to make her comfortable the day before....so all she would do know now was sleep until it was time for her to go. Jason had talked my dad into taking a break and going down to the waiting room. Sue and I promised him that we wouldn't leave her until he got back. I think she must have known when he left. She couldn't go in front of him. She took her last breath at 9:16am with Sue and I by her side. She looked so peaceful.

I'm not sure that it hit me right away -- my mom couldn't be gone. There was still so much I had to learn from her and so many things I had to tell her. When we finally left the hospital after being there for four days straight. The next couple of days were a blur. I can remember so many friends, family, teachers and students coming to her visitation to pay their last respects. I remember the words that we spoken at her funeral and the last time I saw her before they closed her casket for the last time. This is an experience that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.

Three years later, I still miss her more than ever. I would give anything for one more day with her. However, I have to take comfort in the fact that she is at peace. She is cancer free and in no more pain. She is happy. I have my own personal guardian angel. I know that I will see her again one day. I love you momma.

I am employed....

Well, it's official. I am now employed with Bank of America as a Personal Banker. I am feeling so many things right now--excited, anxious, nervous, scared. I really think I am going to enjoy working there once I take that first step of actually going back to work. I was able to meet most of the people that I will be working with and it seems like I'm going to be a good fit. There is one other PB besides myself. We seem to be around the same age and I'm hoping to learn a lot from him. While this is the same position I held with Chase, I feel this position with Bank of America will be more challenging and interesting. I won't have the stress of trying to force older more affluent customers to meet with a financial advisor. While I will miss the investment part, that was always the most stressful part of my previous job. Investments are not something you can force on someone, espcially if they aren't comfortable with it. At BOA, I will get to deal first hand with mortgages, instead of refering them to a mortgage officer. I will also get to deal with more business customers than I'm used to. I like a good challenge, so it should be an interesting and exciting adventure for me.

Jason is currently working on finishing his thesis. His defense is scheduled for April 15th. I admire him so much during this time in his life. Not only does he put in a full day in the lab at work, but when he comes home he puts in another 2-3 hours on his thesis. I know he will be glad when he can put this behind him. He also finds time in his crazy schedule to pamper and spoil me too--which I don't mind at all.

Valentine's Day is coming up. We are planning on going out to dinner at to a movie. I am SUPER excited about dinner. Sushi is one of our most favorite things. We haven't had sushi since before we left West Virginia in May, so we are both REALLY looking forward to that. I think it's going to be a great day.....we just love spending time with each other.

Are you ready for some football.....

I watched probably one of the best Superbowl games EVER, yesterday!!!! I had been rooting for the Giants all along, but felt that they probably just weren't going to be able to beat the undefeated New England Patriots. I am so glad that I was wrong. The NY defense played one of their best games of the season, sacking Tom Brady more times than he had been sacked all season. While the Patriots played a very good game it just wasn't quite good enough. I am especially happy for Eli Manning. Having won a Superbowl in only his fourth season in the NFL, he will finally be identified as Eli Manning, not Peyton Manning's little brother.
While I'm excited to have watched such a good game yesterday, it also means the end of football season until September. I have my wonderful husband to blame for my new found obsession with football. I absolutely LOVE football!!!!! I sure hope that this year flies bye so it's football season again before I know it.

Keep your fingers crossed....

I had an interview with Bank of America this morning. I feel really positive after talking to the Branch Manager that I should hopefully get a job offer sometime next week. It has been over a year since I have worked. I'm really scared. It has been so nice this past year to be able to take it easy if I'm having a "bad" day. Granted, they don't happen very often anymore, but Crohn's is so unpredictable, that I do still have them every once in a while. I'm worried about what the "work-day" will do to me. I get tired so easy, now.....and when I get run down I tend to get sick. Taking immuno-suppresant drugs don't help either. I'm trying so hard to stay positive and the job itself sounds SO wonderful!! I'm hoping that my body will be nice to me but only time will tell.